Living with Psychosis: The Testimony of a family member and caregiver.

This narration is based on my true personal experiences of life from the perspective of a family member after a sibling develops psychosis.


I was born in a family of 7 children and my parents are both alive by the Grace of God. My father worked in mines all his life having migrated to Zimbabwe from Malawi in 1957. We grew up from a poor background. I witnessed my sister who was very brilliant in school dropping out of school after completing her primary education. This was mainly because my parents could not afford to pay the secondary school fees for her despite the fact that she had come out with distinctions in both her subjects. She was dropped out and preference was given to my elder brother who was also in secondary school. Such was the degree of poverty and lack.

I am the last born the family. I have 4 brothers and 2 sisters. My brothers were talented soccer players and they all played soccer in the first division. A lot happens in sport that may escape the attention of a parent. Through sport children can be exposed to a lot of peer pressure which if not handled correctly may lead to a lifetime of regrets and irreparable damage to one’s life.

I witnessed this in the life of my brother Henry who became a living victim of drug induced psychosis at a tender age of 21. Henry was a very handsome young man whose etiquette and behaviour in public was an example to many. He was kind, considerate and well groomed. /in our community he was cherished by many. He could mix easily with anyone. As such he had many friends and this was to be the seed for his future downfall.

His friends liked him. And he was my parent’s favourite child. In sports he was highly gifted. He played soccer.

The abuse of drugs in sports

My brother easily fitted into the first team for Renco Mine which was playing in the highly competitive first division. Pressure to achieve was high as they aimed promotion into the premier league. During these days, my brother made friends with his teammates. That was when he started to be exposed to illegal drugs especially marijuana (mbanje).

They called it Ganja. They would listen to music by Bob Marley, Burney Wailer and Misty Roots. And soon he wanted to be more and more like them. Mbanje became part of his life. He would take it every day. Before their training, the soccer players would pass through a hide-out in the bushes which they called Mount Zion. In Mount Zion they would take as much of marijuana as they needed to enhance their performance during training or during the soccer matches. I would see them doing it but was oblivious to the dangers. I was very young only about 10 years of age. I was the one who carried his football boots so I would be there most of the time. I was kept under oath never to disclose this to our parents. I complied.

The onset of Psychosis

One day Henry bid the family farewell. He was going to Masvingo where he had gotten a job. Everyone was excited about the prospect. The family prayed and wished him well.

About two days later, my parents were shocked to see a police officer coming home carrying the bag that belonged to Henry. They were gripped with fear for the obvious. They waited for the officer to pronounce the fate of their beloved son, fearing for the worst.

They were told that their son had suddenly developed mental illness in Masvingo. He had gone beserk. He was violent. He was beating up people indiscriminately. Talking to himself. Seeing invisible things and talking to invisible people. He had initially been arrested but was later sent to Ngomahuru Hospital. There were some documents in the bag that were then used to locate our family. The situation was bad. Upon his discharge from hospital, he reunited with his friend and had another shot of marijuana. Immediately he relapsed again. He would burn things in the home. Sing all night. Beat up people including out parents. The immediate family response was to tie him to the bed. It took a real fight to be able to achieve that.

Family response

The family were very confused. All the joy was gone. No one could explain what was happening. People didn’t know what to do. Our family was a Christian family and my father was the leader of the church.

We also had traditional roots. The family elder’s meeting resolved that this didn’t call for a hospital approach. This sickness was attributed to some spell and hence traditional doctors had to be consulted for explanation, insight and treatment. In no time, traditional healers flocked the house. They tried all they could. Gave the family endless lists of what needed to be bought, including a beast and traditional beer ceremonies. For a family languishing in poverty this was a tall order and it meant the family was sinking further into the poverty trap. Buying a beast was too much an order for a family that owned no beast at all. But it wasn’t seen that way. It was a battle to return Henry to normalcy. It was a desperate attempt but there was no change. No amount of traditional magic worked.

My father had to focus on fending for the family otherwise disaster was brewing. This shifted the burden of care to my mother. It was one of the most traumatising experiences in her life.. Having to care for an adult child who would strip naked due to illness. She endured the agony and emotional stress. I was also not spared. I was asked to skip school classes to go with my mother to distant places to consult various traditional healers. At one time we walked close to 30km in the forest. Even that did not help.

Community based abuse

The family decided to have him admitted at the homestead of some traditional healers called John Bhuka in Mhondoro more than 600km from Renco Mine. He went there and stayed for a long time there. At one time my parents were summoned to Mhondoro to respond to some emergency. It turned out that my brother ha been turned into a real slave. Doing unbelievable manual work with little to no rest and barest minimal food. While doing his slavery duties the goats which he was tending ate in someone’s field and in rage that person literally took an axe and struck my brother in the head. He wanted him dead. He was lucky to be alive as he lost a lot of blood. Up to date, he bears that mark in his head. The perpetrator was never arrested for attempted murder.

My brother lived in squalid conditions with no access to clean water and not even being given the due attention for personal care. He would seldom bath or brush his teeth.

This prompted my family to take him back home and resort to the medical approach. He was admitted in hospital and transferred to Ngomahuru Hospital about 52 km out of Masvingo along Beitbridge road. He was treated and went through the rehabilitation process.

He regained his life skills and the change became visible. He was taught to take his medication. He has been doing that ever since.

From Psychosis to Stability

Today, Henry has been living with mental illness for about 30 years. My parents are still alive and are retired. They are now subsistence farmers in Sanyati.

Henry is one who takes care of the family. He tills the land and manages all the projects at home. He has recovered and he knows how to manage his condition and go to Sanyati Hospital for his regular supply of psychotic drugs.

What made the difference in his life was the wider and consistent family support. This has helped him recover his self-esteem. Signs of sickness can still be seen but they are very mild.

Conclusion

The pain and suffering that my brother, my family and I went through as a result of psychosis inspired me to have a passion in mental health so I could share my story and help other families to come out of their predicament.

         I am Tendai Mayuni
                                                   and 
This is my story!

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